Monday, September 23, 2013


seven year ago on this date a couple of friends said why don't you start a blog.
So I did...
SO many things have happened in 7 years and it spins me out that it has actually been that long. It is a humble little place where I have shared craft projects...once or twice, thoughts about work, new job prospects and babies, major moves, utter heart break and shear joy. There has been ebbs and flows of how often I have been here to write but I have enjoyed writing and sharing at this little part of the internet.
As I sit typing this I have a very special friend visiting from Alice Springs and I am awaiting a text to say this little boy is a big brother.
Here's to many more years of Lozalicious. Thanks for joining me on this journey!

Monday, September 16, 2013

Project 25- A Mothers love

Sometimes it is hard living 400kms away from where Isaac is buried. We decided to have him buried in Adelaide because we know we won't be living in Whyalla for ever. Some days I would really like to be able to just go and see his grave, whenever I felt like it, not just when we are in Adelaide. When we went down for our follow up appointments we went to the cemetery and arranged to have a plaque made for Isaac's grave.
Before we went down for those appointments I made a cross to put by his grave so it wasn't unmarked. A lot of the other babies graves had crosses, or toys or little keepsakes. I used a couple of rulers and nailed them together, painted it blue and printed out Isaac's name and then used a varnish type substance to coat the cross and protect it from the weather. The lion was a gift from Isaac's cousin
I was pretty happy with the result and it definitely did the trick to mark Isaac's grave. It was also something really special I could do as his Mummy for him. I think sometimes parents (who actually get to bring their children up) forget all the things they 'get" to do for their kids. It was nice to be able to honor and love Isaac in this way. The little cars were a gift from Isaac's grandpa.
Last visit we had to Adelaide we were pleased to see that the plaque had been finished and put on his grave. We had known it was there before we got to the cemetery as a number of our family has been to visit Isaac and sent us pictures. 
So now that Isaac's plaque is there we bought the little cross home and I put it in the Garden just today. Where we planted our original vegie patch the day after we had our scan telling us all the troubles Isaac had. only 3 more projects left!

Saturday, September 14, 2013

bind up

Psalm 147:3
This verse is something special for me. 
It came up out of the blue about 5 years ago. A child hood friend -Kenny was killed in very tragic circumstances. He was stopped by the side of the road one night to change a flat tyre. He was hit by a car and killed. I heard about it somehow and wanted to send his Mum a card. Kenny's Mum and his brothers had lived across from us in our culdesac when we were kids. There were 4 boys in his family and 4 girls in ours. We used to play after school, their driveway was really steep and we used to ride our bikes down it...or just run down it and yell like lunatics! We had a lot of fun. I had a bit of a crush on Kenny. I thought he was a bit of a dream boat...I was about 8 and I think he was 10. He was always very kind to me and I had a lot of fun memories of playing outside, climbing trees...before play stations and before our family owned a computer. 
This verse jumped out to me when I was writing to Kenny's Mum all those years ago. I can't even remember what I wrote and I definitely didn't know what I know now. I hope it was a help to her and not too clumsy. I hope she feels like her wounds were bound as she grieved for her son, I haven't seen her since Kenny's accident.

It then came up again recently. My sister wrote me a lovely card with this verse in it. Tim and I have often talked about having a wound that is so deep and raw. Being a few more months along in our grief journey it is a comfort now...It came at the right time. Earlier on I think I may have been a bit mad at reading it. But looking back I can see how my wounds were bound and how they continue to be bound. 
And then of course it came up on the Pocket fuel Instagram one day a couple of weeks ago and I felt like it was for me!

As a side note We've had a few very hectic weeks. We've spent some time away from home. One week in Adelaide for Tim to attend a conference. And then a quick trip up to QLD for Tim to officiate at a friends wedding. He did such a good job. I was so proud of him. We met our nephew and hung out with our nieces...I also got offered a job...but I'll talk about that another time!