Friday, January 09, 2015

I used to blog here...

(taken a bit over 6 weeks ago)
I tried to write here many times last just felt clunky and un natural. It was a shame because I used to love to blog...and read blogs. But it just seemed a bit hard and fake after Isaac was born. I have popped into peoples little corners of the internet from time to time to catch up on the craftyness, vegetable gardens, baby loss and every day life. 

2014 was a bit of an up and down year. There were joys and sorrows, health and sickness and a lot in between. We are set for our family to change again in April when we welcome our Rainbow baby into the world. We have had an anxious time as we had extra tests to see if our baby is healthy or was developing like their big brother. We are relieved to know this baby is well and developing as it should. This time we will be bringing a baby home.
So I hope I'll be back here again...or a little more often,
I've missed it...

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Project 29- Pom Pom wreath

Can it be true!? I made it to 29 projects...only 9 months after my 29th birthday!
Truth be told I actually completed this some time ago...I got fancy and made some Christmas presents this year and thought (just in case those family members still read my blog) I better not post the photos ;)
I was inspired by a pom pom wreath I saw on this ladies Instagram and thought...I'm making me one of those.

This was a super easy and enjoyable took a little bit of time making the pom poms but if you stick on your favourite Christmas movie and make them while you are watching that, you're done in no time at all. I used whatever yarn I already had in my stash and then tired the pom poms to a piece of circular plastic I cut. (The plastic I had from a print I had received in the post).

I'll take this moment now to say
Christmas blessings to you and yours. Thank you for stopping by this little part of the internet, every comment means a lot. Especially after the sadness we have experienced this year. It's meant a lot to know you've been keeping us in your thoughts.
See you in the New Year for what I hope is a much, happier, peaceful and less emotional year 

Sunday, December 15, 2013

capture your grief part 2

These are the last of the photos I took for the capture your grief project back in October xxx

Wednesday, December 04, 2013


I'm a bit slow in posting this...
my baby sisters turned 21 a couple of weeks ago. 
It's hard to believe. I remember parts of the day they were born. Jek (my other sister) and I were being looked after by the neighbours. They came into the world quickly by emergency cesarean 1 minute apart. I remember when Dad came back to tell us they had arrived he bought some Hungry Jacks...but only for him...for some reason I always remember that, obviously important to an 8 year old! I had my first taste of champagne in a shot glass. I didn't like it much.
I'm proud as punch. They are two of the best I know
Happy Birthday little ladies 

Saturday, November 09, 2013

Project 26 and 27- The Dachshund addition

This cute bunting made it's way to London in August for a friends birthday...
and I made these using a pattern from some pj pants I had split in the bum (they were about 5 or 6 years old! well loved) I was so grateful for a lady I know from church who owns a over locker to sew the pants with. I feel like they could last for some time! 
Only one more project to blog about :)
Ps...thank  you all who have come here and left beautiful comments. It really means a lot to have you reach out and support in this time xxx

Sunday, November 03, 2013


If you've been reading lozalicious for a while you would have read about our precious bambino Isaac and all the troubles we had. I wrote a few times here about our journey to parenthood and the heartache we had since Isaac passed away. After Isaac was born we decided we would have an autopsy because throughout my pregnancy the doctors didn't know what Isaac's diagnosis was or why all his problems had happened. We hoped we could get some answers from the autopsy. It showed some answers but didn't point to any one syndrome or diagnosis so we agreed to do genetic testing. The first test for Baller-Gerold was sent to The Netherlands and we received the results back a couple of months ago and it came back "normal" meaning it was unlikely that what Isaac "had" was not Baller-Gerold. Dr Chris our geneticist, sent away to test another gene that can show the Baller-Gerald syndrome. We got those test results back last week and that one came back "normal" as well. So it was sort of no news...well it was and it wasn't. When we first found out Isaac had so many issues, we began a roller coaster of emotions, that we haven't really gotten off yet. I also held some hope that things would be different, that the doctors had it wrong and that Isaac would survive and be a healthy baby that we would bring him home and see him grow up. But after he died I guess those hopes moved to having a diagnosis so that we could know what we were up against for the future. And if I'm completely honest I hoped for news that would say what Isaac had...whatever it was, was a complete stoke of bad luck and it will never happen again. I hoped that we would get some news like that...that we could have that guarantee it would never happen again...but that's la la land. And it isn't going to happen. At least the "good news" is that it isn't a Baller Gerold- which was a 1 in 4 chance of happening again. Which would have been heartbreaking. But not knowing anything...and perhaps when we try and have another baby again just rolling the dice and giving it a go and having those torturous 12 weeks, 15 weeks, 20 weeks til ultrasounds to wait and see how the baby has formed and to see if it's all happened's a bit complicated...but that's our life right now. SO we try and focus on the positives...I started a new job about 6 weeks ago. My sister is moving to our town next year with her graduate nursing position...and we are planning a nice holiday to Thailand. And hopefully when we are ready to add to our family again we won't have to go through this again...

Friday, October 18, 2013

#capture your grief

On the 2nd of October really early in the morning I found myself on the bus on my way to Adelaide with my dear friend who had been staying with me in Whyalla. I thought I would quickly check Instagram and saw that one of my fellow bereaved mumma's was taking up this photo challenge...I had been thinking about joining a photo challenge for October and this seemed like a really appropriate one for me. So below are the photos I have taken so far xx
 (Day 15 (October 15th) was wave of light in honour of "Pregnancy and Infant Loss awareness day")